Gary Politzer

 

Childhood inspirations: 1. the fossil record - the vast time span of the geology & paleontology. 2. The clouds - their shapes and freedom. 3. The pencil - a means of dialog with imagination & self-discovery

  I am currently exploring the roots of my inspiration in an attempt to reconnect with what my art was for me as a child. I can remember thinking that the greatest thing in the world was a pencil, because it was a doorway to my imagination. I used to find my imagination endlessly entertaining, and I would pick up a pencil and just start drawing whatever came into my mind and watch it unfold. As an adult, I felt I had largely lost this spontaneity.
I was talking about this to a new friend, and she challenged me to bring her a pencil drawing at our next meeting. I did this, encountering some difficulty with my inner critic, but succeeding nonetheless. The result was new inspiration, connecting my old spontaneous relationship with the pencil and my lifelong fascination with dreams. In this situation, my friend also acted as muse, because I did the drawing at her suggestion, knowing I would have been less likely to overcome my resistance on my own. Whatever gets you started is a good thing, in my estimate, because once started, there is momentum to continue. Here is the drawing I did, followed by the text of the dream, and a bit of interpretation:

Longing to be held.

Patience, practice, persistence

offer a way home.

All burnt up like a

marshmallow over fire.

Only magic left.

Yearning for your touch.

Impossible to predict

when it will be here.

Craving fulfillment,

disappointment purifies.

Letting go is love.

	Inspiration	a feeling of illumination like the sun shinning on me in winter when it is welcome
	Insight	a feeling of sinking through the surface into the depts. I feel listening and patience connected with this.
	Energy	A bad subject for me today - it looks murky and jagged.
	Clarity	Clarity:  has a feeling of immediacy and certainty. A feeling of connection with what is REAL.